This is me.

I will not tell you my real name. I simply refuse to be that personal right now. What you need to know is that I am a female. I am 19 and in college. I am from the United States and live in a small town. I am not sure why I want to write this, I suppose loneliness is beginning to creep in again. Another thing you need to know is I was raped. I refuse to go into the details right now because it is a story for another time. All you need to know is that it happened 62 days ago. One last thing: I am a submissive. I have a Mistress and I am very pleased that she chose me.  Our relationship is different from what you see in porn or in 50 Shades of Gray. Our relationship is one of mutual respect, love, and devotion. You may believe I am too young to understand what I am getting into but I  assure you I do. I will not give you her name or any other identifying clues as to who she is. Before you ask: no, she is not married and no, I am not in a relationship either.  I do want to take this time to apologize….

I have read several blogs here about women whose men have cheated on them with a Mistress. That makes my heart ache because these types of relationships should be born of love, respect, trust, and most importantly: freedom.  If any wife or girlfriend is reading this please do as Nina Simone says: “You have to learn to get up from the table where love is no longer served.” I have walked a day in your shoes and I know how deep the betrayal cuts… My mother left my dad, sister, and me for her Master. Of course at the time, I had no idea what was going on (I was seven.)

In any case, I understand and from the depths of my heart I apologize for your husband’s, wive’s, or whatever the case may be, betrayal. I know I am jumping around but I am new so please be patient.  I will post again tomorrow. Be safe and know you are loved….